i need a song

i am tired
i am not
i am tired
i am not
i am tired
i am not
i am tired
i a m
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i am tired
i am not
i am tired i am nopt
i am
tired i am not
i am tired
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i am tired
ia am not
i am tired
i am not





some times i wonder if i am tired or not
i guess many times its just a matter of choice
i choose to be tired
or i choose not to be tired
its just a matter of choice



today i dunno
maybe i am maybe i am not
maybe its not physically just mentally

but well the funny thing is
i got change when i reach home
and sank into the sofa staring or watching or stoning infront of the TV
then my mum said

Do i have to go back to primary school to teach u how to wear your clothes?

I had my clothes worn the other way round
inside out


this is very casual
nothing much
still processing my other stuffs

abcdefgh..............I

I am he
I am she

I am him
I am her

I am they
I am them

I am our
I am their

I am selfish
I am all about me

I am the owner of my stories
I am storyteller

I am Cinderella
I am Snow white

I am Hungry Werewolf
I am Captain Hook

I am my characters
I am my thoughts

I am I
I am who

Mystory

she wanted to test
to test how much time she could endure
how much time was needed to wait

After she was done with watever she needed to do
She started the test
She waited


She thought to herself
if she wanted to pretend that she was really tired
To try to create a sense of guilt
However
she didnt

Then she spent her time persuading herself to have patience
And she started to think what would be told to her at the end of this waiting process
She knew exactly
she had in mind two sentence

Its wierd why we even bother to ask certain things when we know exactly
What dissapointing answers we will get
we just know each other so well that we know the answer is never what we wished it to be
However we still ask
ask with hope that the person will change

so again she knew it too well
she knew what kind of things she will get
but yet she choose to take the risk
Test it out
she wanted to see if there is a change
she wanted to know her limits on waiting


after a forty mins
her answers are revealed
another dissapointment
Indeed this test was no different from the last tests

I am so Happy!

I am happy beacuse
today is the last day of school!

I am so happy because
i received a wonderful gift
lovable!!!

I am so happy because
i get to practice drums at last

I am so happy because
i get to eat the things i have always wanted to eat
for a long long time!

I am so happy because
there are lots of things to be happy about!!


So why bother about unhappy things

think happy

Happy happy happy!!!!

i miss my chinese posts

i waned to write this long ago
so i guess its not what i am now

i wanted it to be in chinese
but its really hard with my laptop that is so seriously screwed

so here goes

qi shi yi ge ren ye han hao
yi ge ren de shi jian zhong bi liang ge ren lai de duo
bu shi ma?

yi ge ren chi fan
yi ge ren guang jie
yi ge ren xiang yige ren de shi
yi ge ren he yi ge ren kai pai dui
yi ge ren ye mei shen me bu hao


wo xi huan yi ge ren
zhen de
xi huan yi ge ren

yin wei dang wo yi ge ren shi
wo shi wo de zhu jiao
wo shen me dou ke yi zuo
wo xi huan zhe zhong wo xing wo su de zuo feng

chi zao wo yao
changshi yi ge ren kan dian ying
yi ge ren lu you
zuo geng duo yi ge ren de shi!

wo xiang zhe yang xie da gai ye zhi you yi ge ren hui dong
yi ge ren he yi ge ren
ni shi na ge ren ma?

P.T.

Its preety amazing how one can influnce the otherssss

the even more amazing thing is
knowing how man live in self denial
man as refer to everyone
or at least the majority

we so badly need others to tell us who we are
professionals,tests, testimonials
and even the stars say something about ourselves
Amazing yah

we get amazed when things get really accurate
not thoughts of hiding
just amazed and surpirised by the accuracy

we live in self denial
we try so hard to hide every single thing from others
yet when the results of the test comes out
the only reaction is
Wow! this is accurate

i am part of this

i need people to tell me who i am

i live in self denial

i think i lost it....

nevermind..